5 years 2 months 19 days

we have just gone to the place were it sorta all started ... I sorta feel it all dissolved ... is it really ending? It hurts so much to see you giving up, at the same time I kinda feel it's impossible to change you ... you are the girl everyone dote on, everyone loves and gets what she wants ... I love to give you that but sometimes I want to feel that you think about me a lot ... am I too sensitive? or am i thinking too much?

What are you thinking about "us" right now? are you asleep?

I don't know why my heart seems heavy and aching ... but I am sure I can't sleep now ... I just can't ... I wanna let it out so much yet my eyes are still dry ... why?...

I feel as if we are drifting, I feel that you are giving up ... am I trying to make a change that is possible? Or is it me giving up because I don't want you to change for me but be the girl you are?

How much do you love me now?

Have you thought why I acted this way so suddenly? Have you noticed the slight unwillingness in me at times? Have you worried about my needs? really?

You really loved me, I feel it, but I guess I am expecting a lot am I?

I really don't know if what I am doing is right? but I only hope only good turns out ...

I can't believe how much it hurts ... I wonder if my bed can sooth it...

5:30 AM